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playing with ideas…

I am going to get fit. I have always wanted to be an acrobat, already when 5 years old. It’s one of my first memories of my life… me balancing on the back of a chair after having watched circus in television. It was an armchair, but still…

I want to do yoga, taichi, martial arts, parkour… I want to become a contortionist. I want to be able to do a split and backflip and sit on my head. I want to be able to walk on my hands, do 100 pushups and 20 pullups. Right now I think I could manage like 5 pushups and zero pullups. I probably couldn’t even hang on the bar.

I want my condition back. I want to be able to run “tjejmilen” (The Swedish mile is the “old land mile”, that is 36000 feet, and today it’s 10 km – quarter-marathon, perhaps :-)) and have a good result. 10 km shouldn’t be anything to even think about.

I want to learn to dance – everything. Especially flamenco, samba, tango, tribal belly dance, tap dance and ballet… I really want to dance on my toes. I don’t think it’s a smart thing, though, because I have got the impression it’s rather painful, and I, with my Asperger’s, am 100% about comfort. Bruised toes and Asperger’s don’t match well… And I want to learn to dance historical dances, like branle and menuette.

I am going to at least take one class of martial arts. It doesn’t matter I’m fat, weak, old and have asthma πŸ˜€

I want to skydive, bungee jump, make a dive from high cliff and ride a hot air balloon, paraglide, ride a helicopter, go on a canopy tour and basejump, and… Actually, this list sounds very interesting and enjoyable: National Geographic’s top 10 aerial adventures πŸ˜€

I want to learn to fly and have my own plane.

I want to visit space… zero gravity flights and watch a rocket launch… yes. πŸ™‚

I want to be thin. I want to weigh 60 kilos. (130 pounds) I want to feel what it’s like to be thin. I’ve been fat all my adult life – or at least felt myself fat.
I want to know what it is like to be beautiful. “Be listed as one of People Magazine’s “50 Most Beautiful People”… I don’t think THAT is ever going to happen… I mean… who would ever be able to see me?

I want a tattoo… perhaps some black birds in silhouette on one shoulder… that looks really nice. Or a big tribal-ornamental-Viking-Celtic-Kalevala-koru triangular tattoo on upper back πŸ˜€

I also want to learn to make tattoos. I think I would be good at it.

I want to design and make my wardrobe, up to accessories. I want to know how to make hats, corsets and shoes.

This photo is by Viona Art.

“Viona, who is herself some strange, mystical, unearthly being.Β  She is modelesque, with an incredible face, and poses in many of her own photos.Β  It also appears that every one of her friends is also modelesque, were born seamstresses, and all do great hair and makeup.Β  To add to the bizarre soup of it all, they’re all German, who speak perfect English, and travel the world taking surreal pictures.Β  They have the ability to attach horns to their head, wear fur and look stunning, obtain and successfully sport colored (or lack there of) contacts, and apply gallons of liquid eyeliner with no flaw nor shakey hand whatsoever.”
Lauren: Gothic
I want that…
I want to buy a good camera and learn to use it
I want to learn how to make up a make-up πŸ˜‰ and do hair…
I want to grow my hair really long and have a blog about long hairstyles πŸ˜€

I want to design costumes for a Hollywood movie. Preferably for a Tim Burton movie πŸ˜€

I want to act in a Hollywood movie πŸ˜€ I want to win an Oscar in screenplay and costuming πŸ˜€

“Meet one of my heroes”
That would be nice… I know I will be really sad the day they die and I didn’t even write to tell them how much they meant to me. Christopher Lee and David Attenborough… both are getting old. Can kick the bucket at any moment.

I want to go to a date with my 100 celebrity dates list. πŸ™‚ Or even better… I want to paint their portraits, in real portrait painting situation… with them sitting in a room and talking while I paint them. It last longer and I don’t need to be social and charming, nor eat. πŸ˜€
I want to learn to paint portraits really well.
I want to learn to make sculptures, portrait busts… I also want to learn to use the wheel well. I want to be really good at pottery and clay.

I want to have an art exhibition, with paintings, drawings and photography – and crafts and sculptures/pottery, and calligraphy, embroidery…

I want to create art to help collect money to WWF and Unicef. Maybe make cards and stuff.

I want to support myself as a writer.
I want to write a novel and have it published.
I want to write a screenplay and have it made into a Hollywood movie.
I also want my play in a theater.
I want to publish a book of poems.
I want to translate books and get it published.
I want to write a non-fictional book and get it published.
I want to write articles and get them published.
I want to illustrate a book and get it published too.
I want to be a published author.
I also want to write lyrics to a song that gets recorded and played in radio.

I want to win the Nobel literature prize. And Hugo award. And Rudolf Koivu award. And… Even though Orson Scott Card says awards are… not important. Don’t mean anything. But – it’s easy for him to say, he has plenty πŸ˜€

I want to have a tarot deck published.
I also want to get fluent in reading tarot cards, and do readings in public.

I want to get my Etsy shop up and running.
I want to sell at Renaissance faires.

I want to learn to play the guitar and my recorders well. I have two excellent recorders, a descant recorder and a treble recorder. I also have a violin, and I’d love to be able to play it well, folklore style.

I also want to learn to sing well. Contralto in opera style. I want to learn to sing Holofernes from Vivaldi’s Judith Triumphans πŸ™‚

I want to be so confident that I could travel around the world, and support myself by singing, dancing, playing music, doing some acrobatics and juggling, reading cards and plaiting hair, telling stories and doing some simple magic tricks…perhaps have a puppet theater… and the fire tricks would be nice to know, you know, fire breathing, -eating, -fleshing and -dancing.

I want to travel around the world.

I want to visit Scotland and Ireland, be at Stonehenge at Midsummer and Newgrange at Midwinter.
I want to see the Great Wall of China, Taj Mahal, Hagia Sofia, Hermitage, Louvre, Prado… and I want to see Nefertiti in Berlin. Forbidden city and terracotta warriors… Lascaux and Altamira… I want to visit to Rio and learn to live, have fun and enjoy life.

I want to spend a month in a Catholic convent and contemplate life.

I want to learn French, Spanish, Italian and German as well as I know English and Swedish.

I want to get bees on our balcony and learn to make home cosmetics with beeswax

I want to learn to make preserves, jellies, jams etc.
I want to write a cookbook

I want to “master the art of sausage making, pasta making”, handpulled noodles, preserves and conserves, and making dairy products, like smetana and cheese,.
I want to learn to brew mead, cider and ale
I want to bake through the daring bakers list and do it well
I want to have a cake displayed in Cake Wrecks Sunday edition
I want to become a chocolatier and pastry chef extraordinaire… get a candy makers master degree πŸ™‚

I want to be vegetarian for a summer – from Beltane to Samhain.
I want to quit sugar… because I’m addicted to the stuff. It makes me sick. I know, it’s kind of stupid to want to become world’s best pastry and sugar chef, and then refuse to eat the stuff…

I want to learn tinkering, woodworking, working with glass, from glass blowing and stained glass to lampwork, candle making, model making… a hundred crafts…

I want to create a city miniature… about my fantasy city.

I want to build an Edwardian dollhouse in 1:6

I want to create a collection like the “house on the rock”/Jay Walker’s Library collections… suffragettes, witches, mythical beasts, swords, puppets, special effects… music boxes, snowglobes, paper engineering, clockworks and steampowered gadgets… dioramas. A collection of decoration for every Shabat like for Halloween, Easter and Christmas. Musical instruments. Carousel animals and figure heads… Noah’s ark, amber and peacocks.

I want to make a puppet theater and use that in my storytelling and Renaissance Faires… with hand puppets, not marionettes, even though I’d like to learn to work those too.

I want to learn to make claymation and animation and make a movie

I want to become a toymaker… and make mechanical toys, all work with simple clockwork and steampower and such.
I want to understand and learn Heron’s principles
I want to learn how to make a fountain with the 17th century technique.

I think I’d like to build myself a T-Ford type car… Uh. Better forget that idea. At least for now. I could build it when I’m 60 πŸ˜€

I want to get really good with paper.
There is this woman who makes furniture out of corrugated cardboard… of course I cannot find any pictures, but she laminates the corrugated cardboard into sheets, and uses papier mache and makes really nice furniture out of it. It’s sturdy too. She loves drawers, and makes cabinets with many drawers, all different shapes and sizes… really lovely.
I want to make 1000 cranes

I want to design the interior of our apartment and get it done.
I want to replace the disgusting plastic carpeting with wooden and ceramic floors in every room.
I also want to frame all the artwork in this house and have it on the walls, and I want more art. I really want to own 19th century Scandinavian art… I suppose it’s graphic that counts. I once had a wonderful dream… I was visiting a house of a friend’s friend, and she had a wall filled with amazing graphic sheets… I want that.
I want a walk-in pantry, well stocked and aired.
I want a scented linen closet with lace and silk ribbons.
I want a le Corbusier recliner
I want a craft room, a work room, a place to boil my potions and lotions, dye yarn and make art… Ah. I want the loom back up and working. With heavy rubber feet so that it won’t cause so much noise.

I want an English country cob cottage and a small homestead and support myself there.
Until I get there, I want to have my balcony garden organized and working.
I want a herb garden.
I want to create a labyrinth in Kangaslampi.

“Rent a vacation house for a week and have friends stay over” – yes… I want to celebrate my 50th birthday in a vacation house somewhere nice with my whole family. πŸ™‚
I want to connect with my childhood friends.
I want to host a Murder Mystery dinner party
I want to try something “spiritual”, like go to a medium, have a past life regression or get an “Akashic record reading” πŸ™‚
I want to learn the hocus-pocus Derren Brown Mentalist hypnotism cold-reading lie-to-me “interpreting microexpressions and body language” mind control neuro-linguistic programming stuff.
I want to go to a sing-a-long Rocky Horror Picture Show and sing along πŸ˜€
I want to learn public speaking.
Sort of sick, I know. I really don’t LIKE being with people, but on the other hand I do.

Some other things:

I want to get debt free. It would be really nice to become a millionaire too, but… I wonder how that’s going to happen. I’ll think about that tomorrow πŸ˜€

I want to learn to ride an MC and get one with sidecar.

I want to train our dog and teach him some basic obedience. Like walking nicely in leash and coming when called. He’s a Springer Spaniel, so when he gets loose in the forest, he forgets everything about me, and just follows his nose.

I want to grow a bonsai tree. I know my husband thinks it’s tree abuse, but I think they are amazing.

I also want to make a terrarium, and a cactus garden on a tray…

I want to get rid of my codependency and overachieving.
Hehe… this list isn’t much help for that, is it πŸ˜‰ Perhaps for the codependency thing. I don’t want to wait for things to happen, I want to make them happen. I don’t want to wait. I want to do things for me, simply because I like them.

Plenty of things to think about.

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of 2010 πŸ˜‰

about 10 months of my 101 things challenge. I don’t think I’m going to make it.

Some adjustments done.
I don’t want to learn to play D&D and have a game night. I’m worthless in improvisations and live role plays. I have Asperger’s. I didn’t know that before. It would be nice to have friends over for a game night, but for a game like TP or something as stupid, but I don’t do improvisations.
I also don’t feel like traveling around the world so much right now. The older I get the more uncomfortable traveling gets and the more comfortable I get, so… even though I would like to see certain things, like the Great Wall… traveling is a lot of stress and trouble.

But I do want to get fit, start dressing well and get my apartment fixed.
I also want a motorcycle with a sidecar. I think I’m going to put part of the income of my first book to get a MC driver’s license and an MC with a sidecar… I’m just really worried that people will vandalize my MC or steal it. People in this area do things like that.

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Somehow when one decides to do something, one does everything but πŸ˜€
Perhaps it’s just me πŸ˜‰

I haven’t read much anything the last 2 years! I haven’t read anything from the lists, I think.
I don’t keep a reading journal
I haven’t been in the library for months, and I haven’t hidden one surprise in a library book. (Nor have I sent a message with a balloon or in a bottle either, or dropped any toys.)
I have a couple more fairytale books than in 2009, but I know no new fairytales.

I have been writing more than usually. Considering that I want to support myself with my writing, I have been successfully procrastinating and have managed to find at least a couple of obstacles in my head. πŸ˜€
I did not write a book 2009 and I doubt I’ll write one 2010 either. I doubt I’ll finish NaNoWriMo this year either… Need to get practicing.
I haven’t translated one book.

I don’t have a writing journal, nor an art journal, nor a dream journal, nor a health journal.

I have a laptop πŸ™‚

I have not been doing much art… I have finished three pictures though, and I am working on one as my OWOH giveaway… it SHOULD have been finished and posted already half a year ago. *blush* Well… I’m in pain, and everything is on hold, nevertheless… I’m not good with commitments.

I have managed to frame three (3) pieces of art since January 2009. I haven’t bought any new art.

I have been acceptably good with clicking for free.

I am still a horrible blog pal and blogger.

The website is “fixed”, as Yahoo! ended Geocities.

The mailbox is not empty.

I have not met an internet friend.

I have not written any letters to anyone.

I haven’t been celebrating holidays much, sending cards, making holiday decorations or decorated the house for holidays.

I have cleaned the apartment acceptably, but it’s back in black again. I have no energy or condition to do the dishes every day, and the laundry gets done every now and then – perhaps once a month.

I haven’t decluttered anything, haven’t given away things, haven’t thrown away much. I have managed to sell some bits and bobs.

I haven’t managed to decorate the house any more than how it was the last time.

I have been on one picnic and one tea party.

I did not celebrate my 40th “properly”. I celebrated it though.

I haven’t kept the economical plan. 😦

I have given up the idea of ever learning to play LRP of any kind, D&D included, so no game nights.

I haven’t replace the plants.

I haven’t finished the 100 species challenge nor planted trees.

I don’t know how to make preserves, but I know how to bake Danish rye bread and how to make cheese, curd, yogurt and quark. I have Danish pastries to make, the daring bakers’ challenges to take and fruit carving to learn.

I don’t know how to trim the dog well, and I don’t have a trimming machine nor good scissors for the job. I just cut him as if he was a sheep, twice a year.
The dog hasn’t learned basic obedience nor tricks either.

I haven’t been chewing down my to-do craft list, but now I have a working sewing machine. I got me a new one, haven’t fixed the old one.
I haven’t finished SOS, 52 pairs nor Socktober. Socktober is in 1 1/2 months, so perhaps that…
I haven’t made handkerchiefs nor reusable pads.
I haven’t made me a corset either.
I haven’t designed my wardrobe, not for summer nor winter, autumn or spring.

I haven’t made a kite.

I haven’t learned any card tricks nor practiced my card reading. I haven’t done any readings to strangers.

I haven’t learned to do my make-up, nor do I have a tattoo.

I am getting suspicious about the world around trip… I am not sure I want to…

I haven’t fixed passports, and even out ID cards are expired…

I have been studying languages, even sign language.

I haven’t been practicing my short hand nor speed reading, nor memory techniques.

I didn’t go to the entrance tests for law school, but I hope we get my qualifications fixed so that I can apply to a law school here in Sweden.

I don’t think we’ll move from here anytime soon…

Haven’t taken photo booth photos, visited any exhibitions, galleries or museums… perhaps a couple. I haven’t been at a game nor a theater.

I haven’t practiced guitar nor accordion. I found an alto accordion πŸ™‚

I haven’t been pampering myself.

I haven’t traced my family back 6 generations.

I haven’t taken a first aid/CPR course. I haven’t donated blood, nor have I lost any weight. I don’t exercise more, sleep well, I haven’t done anything to deal with the panic anxiety, social phobia, stress, overachieving, expectations, perfectionism nor codependency.

I am not living, just existing.

I have made a dorodango, though. πŸ™‚ It is easier than it looks, but demands more patience and discipline. I will make this again next year.
I am also able to use high-heel shoes. I haven’t tried running with them, though… I haven’t taken my shoes to a cobbler.
I have sang karaoke in public! πŸ˜€ (I haven’t given a speech in public though)

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What have I actually done of my 101 things?

I have got myself 5 new fairytale books.
I have written somethings
I have a laptop πŸ™‚
I have managed to frame 3 pictures
Geocities “fixed” my website for me :->
The apartment is sort of cleaned… not decluttered.
I have learned to bake the Danish rye πŸ™‚ My husband had tears in his eyes πŸ™‚
I have used only high-heeled shoes for a week, and it went well. I think I can say I can use them πŸ˜€
I have lost 8 kgs – 1/5 of the goal

So – 1/3 of the time gone, a little less than 1/10 of the list done, and not even that properly! Oy vey!

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I picked a meme from allsorts

“Unfortunately Sanna can’t take part because a rule means you can’t take part for three years in a row”
“Unfortunately, Sanna inherited my Hideously Sensitive Skin”
“But unfortunately Sanna had to work overtime that day and asked; “maybe we can go out and eat tomorrow?””
“Unfortunately, Sanna…I got it right away”
“Unfortunately Sanna I understand your frustration”
“Unfortunately Sanna has left me now to take on Marocco”
“Unfortunately, Sanna had to leave us on Saturday morning due to a heavy migraine.”
“Unfortunately Sanna’s second stint at Colwyn Bay barely lasted five minutes before jarring his back and having to be replaced”
“Unfortunately Sanna had to “sit back” while I campaigned my Erin to her title”
“Unfortunately, Sanna lost to a shinobi named Ukon in the first round but Shinku managed to defeat a ninja named Tsuki”
“Unfortunately, Sanna does not remember the technical aspects of how that would work”
“Unfortunately, Sanna realised she’d left her purse including passport, money, everything on the ledge we’d just been sitting on before getting ourselves comfortable on the back. ”
“Unfortunately, Sanna didn’t hum the first few bars of Empty room”

Fascinating… intriguing… I think I am going to write a story of this Sanna, who went to Morocco though she left her passport on the ledge after loosing to a shinobi because she forgot the technical aspects and did not hum the first few bars of Empty Room… Poor girl has migraines and a friend who likes to tell her HE got it right away. Nasty guy. No wonder she has migraine.

I haven’t done about anything for my 101 things. On the contrary, I have added like 101 more things to my “to do” list. There’s project spectrum going on, and I am seriously inspired! So much things! People are so talented, creative, imaginative… I’ve been surfing Etsy and Flickr and WOW!

I’ll share more about that tomorrow. I’ve found more blogs, you see πŸ˜‰

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…that other people’s “to do lists” seem to be easier to “do”?

For example “replace make-up collection”. Sounds like an easy thing to do. Just whack out what you have and go to your favorite store and buy new ones.
But – what if one doesn’t have money?
What if one has social anxiety disorder, like I do?

It’s partly things like that that makes it harder to do what’s on my list. Of course, most of it is because I’m a relaxed procrastinator, and choose to do something else – or nothing – rather than what I “should”. Like writing. It doesn’t cost one penny, I don’t need to meet anyone to do it, but it takes dedication, commitment, and I obviously lack those things. :->

I have been writing. Not what I should be writing, but I managed to read the Love (I love the ending… I wish GGM had stripped 1/3 of the book, but I like the ending :-)) and I got somewhat inspired by it too. I have also managed to bind some of the old stuff to new stuff, so – I suppose there’s some progress.

I have managed to decide what I will do for the toy drop. I have also planned where I’ll drop some of the toys.

I have also cleaned up a lot of our home and thrown away a lot of unnecessary stuff. I have been able to let go of useful stuff we won’t ever use.

The weight loss stopped totally in February. I wish I manage to keep the diet in March as well as in January. I lost 10 kilos in January! That’s really nice!

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Elise Blaha gives a nice idea of how to journal this 101 things journey.

I’ve made myself a cute little thing with covers attached with string to hold the loose leaves together. I’ve already designed the reading journal page on Gabriel Garcia Marquez’ Love in the Time of Cholera. There’s a lot of sex there, and too many words… But I like it.

I’m going to use Henri Rousseau’s The Dream as background and paste the journal box on it.lereve_rousseau

Here’s something from the list: Make your own reusable pads

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