50 things before 50

playing with ideas…

I am going to get fit. I have always wanted to be an acrobat, already when 5 years old. It’s one of my first memories of my life… me balancing on the back of a chair after having watched circus in television. It was an armchair, but still…

I want to do yoga, taichi, martial arts, parkour… I want to become a contortionist. I want to be able to do a split and backflip and sit on my head. I want to be able to walk on my hands, do 100 pushups and 20 pullups. Right now I think I could manage like 5 pushups and zero pullups. I probably couldn’t even hang on the bar.

I want my condition back. I want to be able to run “tjejmilen” (The Swedish mile is the “old land mile”, that is 36000 feet, and today it’s 10 km – quarter-marathon, perhaps :-)) and have a good result. 10 km shouldn’t be anything to even think about.

I want to learn to dance – everything. Especially flamenco, samba, tango, tribal belly dance, tap dance and ballet… I really want to dance on my toes. I don’t think it’s a smart thing, though, because I have got the impression it’s rather painful, and I, with my Asperger’s, am 100% about comfort. Bruised toes and Asperger’s don’t match well… And I want to learn to dance historical dances, like branle and menuette.

I am going to at least take one class of martial arts. It doesn’t matter I’m fat, weak, old and have asthma 😀

I want to skydive, bungee jump, make a dive from high cliff and ride a hot air balloon, paraglide, ride a helicopter, go on a canopy tour and basejump, and… Actually, this list sounds very interesting and enjoyable: National Geographic’s top 10 aerial adventures 😀

I want to learn to fly and have my own plane.

I want to visit space… zero gravity flights and watch a rocket launch… yes. 🙂

I want to be thin. I want to weigh 60 kilos. (130 pounds) I want to feel what it’s like to be thin. I’ve been fat all my adult life – or at least felt myself fat.
I want to know what it is like to be beautiful. “Be listed as one of People Magazine’s “50 Most Beautiful People”… I don’t think THAT is ever going to happen… I mean… who would ever be able to see me?

I want a tattoo… perhaps some black birds in silhouette on one shoulder… that looks really nice. Or a big tribal-ornamental-Viking-Celtic-Kalevala-koru triangular tattoo on upper back 😀

I also want to learn to make tattoos. I think I would be good at it.

I want to design and make my wardrobe, up to accessories. I want to know how to make hats, corsets and shoes.

This photo is by Viona Art.

“Viona, who is herself some strange, mystical, unearthly being.  She is modelesque, with an incredible face, and poses in many of her own photos.  It also appears that every one of her friends is also modelesque, were born seamstresses, and all do great hair and makeup.  To add to the bizarre soup of it all, they’re all German, who speak perfect English, and travel the world taking surreal pictures.  They have the ability to attach horns to their head, wear fur and look stunning, obtain and successfully sport colored (or lack there of) contacts, and apply gallons of liquid eyeliner with no flaw nor shakey hand whatsoever.”
– Lauren: Gothic
I want that…
I want to buy a good camera and learn to use it
I want to learn how to make up a make-up 😉 and do hair…
I want to grow my hair really long and have a blog about long hairstyles 😀

I want to design costumes for a Hollywood movie. Preferably for a Tim Burton movie 😀

I want to act in a Hollywood movie 😀 I want to win an Oscar in screenplay and costuming 😀

“Meet one of my heroes”
That would be nice… I know I will be really sad the day they die and I didn’t even write to tell them how much they meant to me. Christopher Lee and David Attenborough… both are getting old. Can kick the bucket at any moment.

I want to go to a date with my 100 celebrity dates list. 🙂 Or even better… I want to paint their portraits, in real portrait painting situation… with them sitting in a room and talking while I paint them. It last longer and I don’t need to be social and charming, nor eat. 😀
I want to learn to paint portraits really well.
I want to learn to make sculptures, portrait busts… I also want to learn to use the wheel well. I want to be really good at pottery and clay.

I want to have an art exhibition, with paintings, drawings and photography – and crafts and sculptures/pottery, and calligraphy, embroidery…

I want to create art to help collect money to WWF and Unicef. Maybe make cards and stuff.

I want to support myself as a writer.
I want to write a novel and have it published.
I want to write a screenplay and have it made into a Hollywood movie.
I also want my play in a theater.
I want to publish a book of poems.
I want to translate books and get it published.
I want to write a non-fictional book and get it published.
I want to write articles and get them published.
I want to illustrate a book and get it published too.
I want to be a published author.
I also want to write lyrics to a song that gets recorded and played in radio.

I want to win the Nobel literature prize. And Hugo award. And Rudolf Koivu award. And… Even though Orson Scott Card says awards are… not important. Don’t mean anything. But – it’s easy for him to say, he has plenty 😀

I want to have a tarot deck published.
I also want to get fluent in reading tarot cards, and do readings in public.

I want to get my Etsy shop up and running.
I want to sell at Renaissance faires.

I want to learn to play the guitar and my recorders well. I have two excellent recorders, a descant recorder and a treble recorder. I also have a violin, and I’d love to be able to play it well, folklore style.

I also want to learn to sing well. Contralto in opera style. I want to learn to sing Holofernes from Vivaldi’s Judith Triumphans 🙂

I want to be so confident that I could travel around the world, and support myself by singing, dancing, playing music, doing some acrobatics and juggling, reading cards and plaiting hair, telling stories and doing some simple magic tricks…perhaps have a puppet theater… and the fire tricks would be nice to know, you know, fire breathing, -eating, -fleshing and -dancing.

I want to travel around the world.

I want to visit Scotland and Ireland, be at Stonehenge at Midsummer and Newgrange at Midwinter.
I want to see the Great Wall of China, Taj Mahal, Hagia Sofia, Hermitage, Louvre, Prado… and I want to see Nefertiti in Berlin. Forbidden city and terracotta warriors… Lascaux and Altamira… I want to visit to Rio and learn to live, have fun and enjoy life.

I want to spend a month in a Catholic convent and contemplate life.

I want to learn French, Spanish, Italian and German as well as I know English and Swedish.

I want to get bees on our balcony and learn to make home cosmetics with beeswax

I want to learn to make preserves, jellies, jams etc.
I want to write a cookbook

I want to “master the art of sausage making, pasta making”, handpulled noodles, preserves and conserves, and making dairy products, like smetana and cheese,.
I want to learn to brew mead, cider and ale
I want to bake through the daring bakers list and do it well
I want to have a cake displayed in Cake Wrecks Sunday edition
I want to become a chocolatier and pastry chef extraordinaire… get a candy makers master degree 🙂

I want to be vegetarian for a summer – from Beltane to Samhain.
I want to quit sugar… because I’m addicted to the stuff. It makes me sick. I know, it’s kind of stupid to want to become world’s best pastry and sugar chef, and then refuse to eat the stuff…

I want to learn tinkering, woodworking, working with glass, from glass blowing and stained glass to lampwork, candle making, model making… a hundred crafts…

I want to create a city miniature… about my fantasy city.

I want to build an Edwardian dollhouse in 1:6

I want to create a collection like the “house on the rock”/Jay Walker’s Library collections… suffragettes, witches, mythical beasts, swords, puppets, special effects… music boxes, snowglobes, paper engineering, clockworks and steampowered gadgets… dioramas. A collection of decoration for every Shabat like for Halloween, Easter and Christmas. Musical instruments. Carousel animals and figure heads… Noah’s ark, amber and peacocks.

I want to make a puppet theater and use that in my storytelling and Renaissance Faires… with hand puppets, not marionettes, even though I’d like to learn to work those too.

I want to learn to make claymation and animation and make a movie

I want to become a toymaker… and make mechanical toys, all work with simple clockwork and steampower and such.
I want to understand and learn Heron’s principles…
I want to learn how to make a fountain with the 17th century technique.

I think I’d like to build myself a T-Ford type car… Uh. Better forget that idea. At least for now. I could build it when I’m 60 😀

I want to get really good with paper.
There is this woman who makes furniture out of corrugated cardboard… of course I cannot find any pictures, but she laminates the corrugated cardboard into sheets, and uses papier mache and makes really nice furniture out of it. It’s sturdy too. She loves drawers, and makes cabinets with many drawers, all different shapes and sizes… really lovely.
I want to make 1000 cranes

I want to design the interior of our apartment and get it done.
I want to replace the disgusting plastic carpeting with wooden and ceramic floors in every room.
I also want to frame all the artwork in this house and have it on the walls, and I want more art. I really want to own 19th century Scandinavian art… I suppose it’s graphic that counts. I once had a wonderful dream… I was visiting a house of a friend’s friend, and she had a wall filled with amazing graphic sheets… I want that.
I want a walk-in pantry, well stocked and aired.
I want a scented linen closet with lace and silk ribbons.
I want a le Corbusier recliner
I want a craft room, a work room, a place to boil my potions and lotions, dye yarn and make art… Ah. I want the loom back up and working. With heavy rubber feet so that it won’t cause so much noise.

I want an English country cob cottage and a small homestead and support myself there.
Until I get there, I want to have my balcony garden organized and working.
I want a herb garden.
I want to create a labyrinth in Kangaslampi.

“Rent a vacation house for a week and have friends stay over” – yes… I want to celebrate my 50th birthday in a vacation house somewhere nice with my whole family. 🙂
I want to connect with my childhood friends.
I want to host a Murder Mystery dinner party
I want to try something “spiritual”, like go to a medium, have a past life regression or get an “Akashic record reading” 🙂
I want to learn the hocus-pocus Derren Brown Mentalist hypnotism cold-reading lie-to-me “interpreting microexpressions and body language” mind control neuro-linguistic programming stuff.
I want to go to a sing-a-long Rocky Horror Picture Show and sing along 😀
I want to learn public speaking.
Sort of sick, I know. I really don’t LIKE being with people, but on the other hand I do.

Some other things:

I want to get debt free. It would be really nice to become a millionaire too, but… I wonder how that’s going to happen. I’ll think about that tomorrow 😀

I want to learn to ride an MC and get one with sidecar.

I want to train our dog and teach him some basic obedience. Like walking nicely in leash and coming when called. He’s a Springer Spaniel, so when he gets loose in the forest, he forgets everything about me, and just follows his nose.

I want to grow a bonsai tree. I know my husband thinks it’s tree abuse, but I think they are amazing.

I also want to make a terrarium, and a cactus garden on a tray…

I want to get rid of my codependency and overachieving.
Hehe… this list isn’t much help for that, is it 😉 Perhaps for the codependency thing. I don’t want to wait for things to happen, I want to make them happen. I don’t want to wait. I want to do things for me, simply because I like them.

Plenty of things to think about.

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337th day of 1001

What have I actually done of my 101 things?

I have got myself 5 new fairytale books.
I have written somethings
I have a laptop 🙂
I have managed to frame 3 pictures
Geocities “fixed” my website for me :->
The apartment is sort of cleaned… not decluttered.
I have learned to bake the Danish rye 🙂 My husband had tears in his eyes 🙂
I have used only high-heeled shoes for a week, and it went well. I think I can say I can use them 😀
I have lost 8 kgs – 1/5 of the goal

So – 1/3 of the time gone, a little less than 1/10 of the list done, and not even that properly! Oy vey!

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Oh my…

I have climbed mountains… at least it feels like it. What I did was to make four phone calls… I really dislike using the phone.

First I called my social secretary and told her that my contact person is having a vacation so we can’t meet today.

Then I called an old books store and asked them if they buy books. They do. In bulk. Like dozens of books at once. Like book collections and such. I have like half a dozen books to sell… So that road won’t give me more money 😦 But I called.

Then I called the Finnish whatsit and asked where my money is. They had paid it already September 2006. I haven’t still got it… But I called.

I called the bank and asked them where my money is. They have it. In a bank in Finland. So – we have 250 cronas and 130 euros in a bank in Finland I can’t get my greedy-needy fingers on… *sigh* But I called.

Now I’m sitting here shaky because I REALLY DON’T LIKE TO CALL. Panic anxiety isn’t quite sure what to do, because it’s too late for it to stop me from doing things I need to do, but panic anxiety is what I’m experiencing right now… I think I’m going to bed 😉

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10 Projects Challenge

“Vacuumed” from “Tale of a Shooting Star“

The Purpose:

The purpose of this challenge is to reduce the amount of patterns you have not stitched.

The Rules:
1. Have fun reducing your stash.
2. There is no time limit- people have different size projects they would like to work on.
3. Thou shall not purchase any new patterns until 10 projects have been stitched. Pattern size does not matter.
4. Freebies count as part of your total and you can aquire them at any point.
5. Rinse, lather and repeat, as needed, in order to reduce unused stash.
6. The official start date of this challenge is May 1, 2007.

I have received a lot of yarn from my mother – most of her stash, actually 🙂 So I think this challenge would be great for me… and I have A VERY LONG LIST of “to do”… There’s also a 50 projects challenge…

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101 Things To Do in 1001 Days

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past – frequently simple goals such as new year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Some common goal setting tips:
1. Be decisive. Know exactly what you want, why you want it, and how you plan to achieve it.

2. Stay Focussed. Any goal requires sustained focus from beginning to end. Constantly evaluate your progress.

3. Welcome Failure. Frequently, very little is learned from a venture that did not experience failure in some form. Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.

4. Write down your goals. It clarifies your thinking and reinforces your commitment.

5. Keep your goals in sight. Review them frequently, and ensure that they are always at the forefront of your thinking.

Well… I think I have made an effort to do this as well…. er… I hope not. Because I haven’t done anything.

101 goals… hmm…

I want to get into the school
move to Turku
learn French properly and fluently
Pay the bill to the library and start using it again *blush*
get the sewing machine to the repair man and get it fixed
get the dog vaccinated against rabies
make the yule stockings
fill to the stockings
knit the socks on my to do list
Read the classics on my list
(my craft projects list on 43 things)
Get the house cleaned properly
get rid of 1/10 of the book collection
write the cook book
write the witch book
write the craft book
buy a washing machine
Get the laundry pile done
Get ourselves a “kolonilott”
De-clutter
make this apartment a HOME instead of a place to live in

I have a problem with this… I’m optimistic, idealistic and over-achiever… So I’d need to break these up to baby-steps…

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101 things in 1001 days

101 things in 1001 days
It’s a bit like 43 things, but with quite tight time table – I think it’s a good thing – with a time table one will do something – like Whiplash – and even if you don’t manage to do all 101 things, you have finished some after the 1001 days, and you will feel pretty good afterwards anyway.
I was gladly surprised by 43 things, as it showed me that I actually have done and still do a lot of things.
But it also showed me that my goals change all the time – so writing 101 definate goals feels a bit… unnatural to me.
At the same time – what is 1001 days in a human’s life? Nothing. There’s nothing that says that I have to continue with the things I wanted to do during the 1001 days AFTER the days are gone. If I don’t like the things I have decided to do, I can quit – but I have at least tried and can say that “I don’t want to do that – I have tried and I don’t like it”. Right now it’s more like “Er… I don’t know… I probably won’t be doing that in the future…”

So… what would I like to do…

I want to fix my apartment and make it look the way I have always wanted my apartment to look. Wooden floors in bedroom and living room, tiles in bathroom, hallway and kitchen. Light and bright kitchen, warm and inviting; dark and mysterious living room, straight from 1001 nights; a japanese style bedroom and blue-and-white fresh and crisp bathroom.

I want to be able to read, write, speak and understand more languages than I do now.

I want to become lean and agile, start with yoga and martial arts and loose the 40-too-much kilos I’m carrying around right now.
I have a gym membership and I haven’t used it more than once… Pretty ugly, huh? I would like to use it.

I want to get my homepage in good order. Right now it’s a mess. Simply because I don’t know what to do with it.

I would like to learn to play guitar and recorder properly, I would also like to learn how to juggle and to do card tricks. I would like to be able to support myself by street “tricks” and walk through the world.

I would like to get a nice art collection. I dreamt about an old woman living in a beautiful Jugend house filled with graphic sheets by all the great scandinavian fin de siècle artists… and I was so jealous. But it isn’t that expensive. A graphic sheet costs only a couple of thousand cronas, even when it’s Helene Schjerfbeck, Albert Edelfeldt, Carl Larsson or Anders Zorn. I would also love to own a couple of small sculptures.

I would love to learn to use a camera well. I so admire all the people at Flickr, who are so talented, skilled and enthusiastic, taking wonderful pictures every day… I would love to illustrate my own craft book, cook book or seasonal celebrations book with my own photos.

I would love to translate some books and write a couple too 😀

It would be great to become a vegetarian. But I will NOT give up eggs and milk. Never! It would be lovely to be sure that the eggs and milk are from truly happy cows and hens though.

I would love to travel around the world.

I would love to be a person who writes letters and postcards and who sends packages.

I really would love to learn to fly, parachoot, drive a motorcycle and have a nice motorcycle too… With a side wagon, so that my husband and our dog can sit there, when I drive – or the dog and I, when he drives 😀 That would be really cool 🙂

I would love to pay off all my and my husband’s debts. And then start saving money for bigger projects like renovating the apartment, traveling, getting a motorcycle and flying lessons…

I would like to get my loom back, and use it too. I would like to get a spinning rock, and use that too. I would like to use all my skills and actually produce something.

I want to learn to keep art journals and do it too.

I want to learn to controll my psychic skills, become a better shaman and actually become a shaman, who works for the community instead of… well… yeah.

To live without fear and addictions.

Get my teeth fixed.

Start celebrating the Sabbats as I want to celebrate them.

I would like to learn to do a Gothic make-up, get a Gothic clothing style and get a couple of tattoos and more piercings. Or perhaps not. I suppose I’m not quite Gothic, as I would like to wear colors, and I really don’t like make-up… waste of time, money and resources. But I would like to get my own style in clothing as well, something Oriental fantasy style thingy… Layers, colors and embellishments 😀

And this is about 40 things to do… What the heck to invent for the rest?

 

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